Glue

A Five Minute Friday post:

 

Glue. It sticks. But you have to make sure you use enough of it. Although there are times you use too much.

These seem to be my daily questions: “Am I cut out for this?” “What if I screw this up?” “Does he even want me to be his mom?” And then I’m reminded these are not the right questions. “Why can’t I see my friends?” “Why don’t I understand?” “Will I ever get it right?” These are questions he’s asking, wondering silently. And I am like glue.

The consistency has changed though. I’m still stuck, always will be stuck hopelessly in love with a little boy who steals my heart one second and stomps on it the next. But my glue isn’t so thick as it use to be. I think that’s good. He can breathe, and little boys need to breathe, to have a little room to grow, make mistakes, ask questions. A small amount of freedom. Trust me, that’s all I can afford right now, but I see a place down the road where his space will grow wider. It will take time.

There are no ingredients listed on a bottle of Elmer’s glue. I know, I just looked. But the stuff God has put in me, perseverance, patience, kindness, love – hope that someday things will look different, this is God’s bottle of white sticky stuff that holds us together while I wait on Him to put us back together, the only way it will stay stuck together. 

3 thoughts on “Glue

  1. Sherry April 18, 2014 / 11:16 pm

    So true…she steals my heart one moment and stomps on it. I loved your post. Made me ponder my struggles as a mom. It is with the strength that God puts in us and his love that helps us make it through. Thanks for sharing this wonderful post today.
    Have a beautiful weekend.

  2. Julie Sunne April 19, 2014 / 3:53 am

    “Am I cut out for this?” “What if I screw this up?” “Does he even want me to be his mom?” Oh my, the age old questions all mothers/parents ask. Yes, thinks will be different–we have that promise in Jesus Christ. He will put us together, and yes, we will stay stuck! Fun read. Popping over from FMF. Blessed Easter!

  3. Lisa April 19, 2014 / 11:43 am

    Wow, I love this picture of our “ingredients”. Never, ever thought of it like that…but I will now! And…it will help me, so THANK YOU, ever so much. Great post. Bless you….

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